Christmas Blowout 2005
I'm not referring to some kind of sale. We're talking about fighting with family. At least we got the drama out of the way early this year...
So I came home this past Sunday to San Antonio to make my yearly appearance and suffer the great celebration called Christmas. I hate Christmas. It's the one time of the year that I seem to voluntarily subject myself to a situation that I KNOW will prove to be stressful, problematic in almost every possible way, emotionally scarring, and full of anger and fighting... not to mention rampant with awkward situations.
Well this year there was no different, minus the fact that we wasted no time getting right to it. In fact, my dad and I got in an argument over the phone the night before I came home. And since he was the one picking me up at the airport, the ride home was obviously an awkward one. I sat silently, unknowing what to say to the person I had exchanged words with the night before, while he bitched about the new airport construction.
We got home, I put my stuff upstairs, yadda yadda yadda, we went to run a few errands. Then I brought up the unmentionable subject and the shit hit the fan. We fought, we yelled... to an extent that I don't think we have before because we actually touched on issues instead of just aimless fighting and yelling. Hours later, we hugged with tears in our eyes... we had reached an understanding.
Things weren't perfect, nor were they going to be. But we made a step in the right direction, especially for us. So that's good. Then I went over to my mom's house the next evening. We had our chat that lasted a couple hours... and also reached an understanding between us. So... this has actually been the most successful Christmas in terms of family drama. I got it all out of the way within the first two days of being home, and it was productive.
Maybe this Christmas will be different. Maybe 2006 will be different. Things will certainly never be simple and perfect with my family, but that's nothing new. What is new, is that I'm finally beginning to connect and form an understanding with my parents that I haven't had for a very, very long time. Well... it's about damn time.
Current Status:
Mood: Hopeful
Food: Nothing! It's like 3AM...
Song: "Paradise" -Hitomi
So I came home this past Sunday to San Antonio to make my yearly appearance and suffer the great celebration called Christmas. I hate Christmas. It's the one time of the year that I seem to voluntarily subject myself to a situation that I KNOW will prove to be stressful, problematic in almost every possible way, emotionally scarring, and full of anger and fighting... not to mention rampant with awkward situations.
Well this year there was no different, minus the fact that we wasted no time getting right to it. In fact, my dad and I got in an argument over the phone the night before I came home. And since he was the one picking me up at the airport, the ride home was obviously an awkward one. I sat silently, unknowing what to say to the person I had exchanged words with the night before, while he bitched about the new airport construction.
We got home, I put my stuff upstairs, yadda yadda yadda, we went to run a few errands. Then I brought up the unmentionable subject and the shit hit the fan. We fought, we yelled... to an extent that I don't think we have before because we actually touched on issues instead of just aimless fighting and yelling. Hours later, we hugged with tears in our eyes... we had reached an understanding.
Things weren't perfect, nor were they going to be. But we made a step in the right direction, especially for us. So that's good. Then I went over to my mom's house the next evening. We had our chat that lasted a couple hours... and also reached an understanding between us. So... this has actually been the most successful Christmas in terms of family drama. I got it all out of the way within the first two days of being home, and it was productive.
Maybe this Christmas will be different. Maybe 2006 will be different. Things will certainly never be simple and perfect with my family, but that's nothing new. What is new, is that I'm finally beginning to connect and form an understanding with my parents that I haven't had for a very, very long time. Well... it's about damn time.
Current Status:
Mood: Hopeful
Food: Nothing! It's like 3AM...
Song: "Paradise" -Hitomi


