Graduation Horror

So it really hit me today how much the idea of graduating actually scares the Hell out of me.

This isn't to say that graduation hasn't been on my mind for a while... it's definitely been something I've seen coming and been reluctantly preparing for. BUT, today was the day, as I think happens with all graduating seniors at some point, that the idea really really hit me. I have felt sick since it happened, and I feel physically uncomfortable - I'm basically anxious beyond reason. It's probably mostly because I don't know what I'm going to do. I need to apply for grad schools - but first I need to talk to professors to see what kind of recommendations I can get, and I need to take the GREs, and I need to decide which grad programs I want to apply to.

I definitely want to apply to USC's production program... but honestly I don't think I'll get in. So I don't know what to do. There's also the option of diving straight into the industry, but I don't really feel like I have enough knowledge to do that - I'm not qualified in any particular area, and I don't want to spend the rest of my life working up to a prominent position. I've only done one internship, and I'm to the point where I don't have financial time for an internship... I need a paying job, and I need it now. And it's hard to do an effective internship and hold a job that actually pays the bills. I don't know, I'm sure everything will be fine and I'm worrying for nothing... I don't even know if anyone else feels like this... I sure hope so.

Current Status:
Mood: Anxious
Food: Reese's Mini Peanut Butter Cups
Song: "Giving You Up" -Kylie Minogue

City of Sin vs. Palm Desert

Originally I was headed to Vegas... then I realized that would be an ironic faux pas for Easter weekend.

Of course I didn't simply cancel my trip to Vegas just because it would be wrong to go there on Easter... but more because we forgot it was Easter weekend when planning the Vegas trip and then realized we already had plans. I, for example, was supposed to go to Palm Desert with my family for the weekend. And luckily it turned out that the other people involved in the trip had plans/qualms about going that weekend so it wasn't like I was breaking hearts.

I'm not saying that I would jump at the opportunity to go to Vegas for Easter... not only does that sound like an awkward time to go, but I really don't want to hear things like, "Justin you're sacrilegious and you're going to Hell!" again. I mean, granted that usually happens on the Easter's when I'm walking around in boxers that say "Naughty" across my ass, but still... I just don't want to take the chance of hearing it.

Needless to say, Palm Desert is the much more appropriate alternative to Las Vegas on Easter weekend. I mean, looks at the name, for God's sake... PALM Desert...? Am I the only one who sees the religious connection in this visit? Ahem... PALM SUNDAY is a religious holiday... and I'm going to PALM Desert... for Easter SUNDAY...?! So yes... it's obviously meant to be. I guess I could be going to Palm Springs, as well... and it would work too. Actually I take that back, because I know someone who is going to Palm Springs for Easter weekend, and there's some sort of Lesbian party/convention going on. And something tells me that's not religiously grounded by any means.

I think I've made my point. Actually I don't think I've really made a point of any kind... but I sure did type a lot. Well I hope you all have a brilliant Easter weekend... mine will be great, especially after yesterday's events. :)

Current Status:
Mood: Elated
Food: The remaining half of a Chipotle burrito
Song: "seat 3a" -Jordan Queen